off to hold her hand
in the morning I am off to be at my mom's side for a few days. to hold her hand. to try to soothe her before a lung biopsy that is coming tomorrow afternoon. to bring pictures drawn by the girl who has so clearly been on her mind during these scary and harrowing days. to bring some of her favorite music. to read to her. to just be. to advocate for her. to ask questions for her, express concerns for her. to love her. to support her. to mother her. to try to express to her what I know can't be expressed in words. that her heart and mine are together and always have been.... that I am here and that the love and devotion and concern I have for her, I feel for her... is immense. I am banking on it also being good, strong medicine. for us both.